[It was a bit like being a recovering alcohol in a room with exceedingly expensive wine and being told it was all paid for.

She's already ordered people killed in cold blood. Little shocks her anymore. Her sister killed people on masse and no one stopped her. So did her father. Priests even, and she loved her father and sister.]

It gets so hard though, to do my duty. Some days I just want to go back... especially lately... [paused, as she focused on getting the needle in the right spot.] People kill for my position, I'd give it all up for that place in Moore's book. Peace is worth it.