[accidental video]

[pencilpremonition]

[Becca flails in her sleep, and in doing so, knocks into her communicator and turns it on. She tosses and turns, whining and crying out in pure fear. Finally she wakes herself up, sitting up and screaming in terror. It takes a few moments for her to calm down enough to realise where she is, and she huffs in frustration. She draws her knees to her chest and starts to cry.]

Damn it, Stacy...leave me alone. It's been almost ten years, I don't know what you want from me. I'm sorry you died...Stacy I'm so sorry, I tried so hard...but you've gotta let me sleep in peace. I can't change the past, any more than I can change the future. I would've traded places with you if I could've, I swear. Stop haunting me.

Or at least have the decency to admit you're gloating. I've lost everything important to me, what more do you want? Or are you going to hassle me until you drag me down to Hell yourself? Damn it, Stacy...you were my best friend, I never wanted what happened to you. I wish I'd died that night instead of you but I can't... I can't...

I'm losing my mind... I'm losing my mind and you're watching and you're laughing, aren't you? And after all this time, you're still my best friend...you're the only one I've got here. It's not like anyone else here cares. Why would they? I'm fucking worthless without my powers...

[She gets up and goes over to the window, staring down at the flood waters below.]

Maybe I should just jump, huh? Wait till the water goes down...maybe I will. Or maybe I'll just go back to sleep and not run this time. What will you do to me if you catch a hold of me in my dreams? Will I die? It's nothing less than what I deserve, after what I did to you.

[retreating back to her bed]

Yeah...I think I'll try that... I give up, Stacy. You win. I won't run any more.

Comments

[pencilpremonition]

What would you have me do, then? 'Try's pretty open-ended and I don't know where to start.

[bluedemonflames]

First off stop moping. Decide you wanna get somewhere and think of something you can try your hand at to help around her.

Meet me an hour before dinner to cook with me if you don't know what you can do.

[pencilpremonition]

...I can cook, I can sew, but other people already have that covered.

[bluedemonflames]

Don't start that again! You don't have to do something different! I just said you could help me idiot! Elizabeth-san doesn't seem the kind to turn away help either if you wanna sew!

[pencilpremonition]

...I guess... It just seems like a waste of time when other people are already doing it...

[bluedemonflames]

Do it cause you want to. Not cause other people aren't. If you really gotta do something different then do it! Lavi thinks of things all the time so you can too.

[pencilpremonition]

I just...they're saying on the network that if you can't take care of yourself by yourself then you're worthless here...

[bluedemonflames]

So don't listen to them!

[pencilpremonition]

... ... ...

[does not compute]

[bluedemonflames]

What?

[pencilpremonition]

...You're lucky. To be so confident.

[bluedemonflames]

That's not what I'd call it. It just makes sense.

[pencilpremonition]

It must be nice to not care.

[bluedemonflames]

Who says I don't?

[pencilpremonition]

If it doesn't bother you...

[bluedemonflames]

It doesn't bother me cause I don't let it.

[pencilpremonition]

[what is this devil magic]

[bluedemonflames]

...

[He can't really explain more than that. He crosses his arms and sighs.]

Later. Show up or don't show. I'll be in the kitchen an hour early to work on dinner.

[pencilpremonition]

...Yeah, see you then.

[She'll turn up to help, though.]