[Video] VI [Failed!Lock to Cross & Lavi]

[1mistress_nomaster]

[She's in the Church, only familiar thing really to her, and it's so very accidental, but she's just... staring listlessly at the alter, fingers fiddling with her device. Looking but not really seeing. It's meant to be private, but she's just not concentrating at all. Usually, she'd rather die then let people see weakness like this, but it's such an old fear and frustration that she hardly even stops to wipe away tears, let alone think. Not that she cried for much more then frustration most times, and certainly not since she lost the war with Mary of Guise.

This was frustration, and a great deal of fear too.

At the very least she's manages enough to make sure Lin can't see this, she refuses to give the woman that satisfaction most of all, and she wished she could slap her again. Nor does she even know how to ask this question, so she's just blunt about it.]

Tell me, when I return, if I ever leave this cursed, wretched place, am I to be executed? Is that why everyone remembers me so much? 

[it clicks off]

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Re: video; private

[azrthmtrnznthos]

Ah...I take it she said something to upset you badly. If it's what you're worrying about then unless that's what happened in her world...she's simply trying to hurt you.

You were not executed in the version of history I learned. You died a natural death, of old age.

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[1mistress_nomaster]

I think you know well enough what she said to me, clever as you are.

[At Raven's words, she nods. Pressing a hand to her eyes even as her breath caught in another sob, but this time in relief.] Good. I did not fail my people and my family.

[Because that is what execution means. It's not simply dying.]

Re: video; private

[azrthmtrnznthos]

[Aww, Raven recognizes the compliment--but she is more concerned for Elizabeth.]

From the history I learned, you do not fail them. You succeed quite well, such that last I had heard in the version of England from my world, there was an Elizabeth the 2nd reigning well on the throne, and this is about 4 centuries at least past your own.

[Hopefully that'll give her enough to have comfort, without need of knowing more. Because knowing something horrible is going to happen, and you can't do anything to change it?---it's the most horrid burden in the world, and one Raven knows well.]

More...privately Elizabeth--I can sympathize in a way I'd rather not detail, what it is like--having the foreknowledge of something terrible that one can not prevent. I am glad that you do not have that.

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[1mistress_nomaster]

[Elizabeth nodded, showing she hear at the least, but the relief of hearing that makes her press her face into her hands again, and draw ragged breaths, just letting it in sink in.]

Then take the only hope offered -- you can never know what might happen until it happens. [it's just a mumble from behind her hands, because it was the only thing she really had.]